comparisons between myself and a character from a korean soap

had a much-needed rest yesterday. though i still
wasn't able to get a full 8-hour sleep, i got to lay
around the house all day and do nothing but watch
another korean tv series, "My Name Is Kim Sam
Soon".

it's a good enough soap for me and it was rather
surprising that i did not shed a single tear for the
entire series(i usually cry whenever there's a
tear-jerking moment in an episode). but i think i
would have enjoyed it more if i watched it with my
sister. lots of funny moments and i guess it's
because i can relate to the heroine of the series.
well, the main reason why i asked my friend to buy
me this series is because i've read from korean
websites that the heroine, Kim Sam Soon, is chubby, not so
pretty, already 30 years old and still doesn't have a
boyfriend. i was kinda curious at first if the main
character would be a lot like myself. i'm not yet
thirty(but getting there), i'm chubby, and i also don't
have a boyfriend. i think i also act the same way
that the main character acts sometimes though i
think that she's more sensitive and more feminine
than i am. oh, and she also cries a lot (i only cry
when i watch a movie, a tv program, or when i read
a book). but the similarities end there. i'm not as
unfortunate as her situation in life and i'm not as
desperate to find a boyfriend. unlike her, i have
friends who i spend my free time with aside from my
family, i'm the eldest among four siblings, i don't have a funny name , i'm not as
loud as her in public places, and i can't bring myself
to wear girly clothes hehehe(she's always wearing
skirts and high heeled shoes). so i think that if i
were in her shoes, the things that have happened to
her wouldn't have happened to me. i still envy her
though...getting herself a handsome, kind, rich,
sensitive and funny enough guy who's crazy for her
and doesn't mind if she's fat or not. sigh!

sometimes i feel depressed after i watch feel-good movies or tv series like that. i get more convinced each time that good things like that only happen in the movies and not in real life. from my position, i can't tell if i were to end up with a richer, cuter and smarter guy or with a less fortunate, not-so-handsome and not-so-smart guy. i know, i get too picky most of the times. one of my friends even told me to "lower my standards". but i also know that though we always set standards for our ideals, the ones we end up with are always an exception. crazy, crazy world. all i want is to experience something romantic and out of the ordinary before i turn thirty! (like being stranded in europe and meeting the man of my dreams there harharhar!!!)

...........i'm starting to babble.........
.........ookaayyy.....
.......enough for today...........